OMG

This is hard to write.  Almost as hard as the month I've had.  How can I describe it?  Without swearing, like this,
Gutting, Demoralising, Frustrating, Confidence killing, Shocking and almost Heartbreaking.

Well, firstly, since my last post (when I thought I was beginning to make headway), I have been sick and while trying to play through it have lost a few days playing.  Now this is not an excuse for not hitting 900 games, OH NO, I hit 900 games and I could have exceeded it - BUT - it did not increase my profit, in fact it is partly to blame for my downward spiral.
The new site I was playing on had plenty of traffic (ongame network) and I settled down to some Double or Nothing Turbos (looking for the easy bankroll building stuff, ha ha)  Well my SS graph can explain it better than me.

It just disgusts me.  I was bobbing along quite nicely playing $11 games, hit my BR target and started including the $22 when deja-vu struck and I went spiralling out of control.  I did not feel like I was playing any differently but things went wrong and still are, that SS graph is today, and I'm playing as I write (Yes, I know probably not the best idea.)  I cannot really explain this as one of my previous SS graph looks exactly the same when I joked it looked like my son had played a few games.  I keep coming back to FOCUS.  Am I just losing FOCUS and sitting in these games, trying to play them quicker so I can make more money.  I just don't know.  I want to have a few days off and get some study in, which usually does re-focus me and I tend to play a lot better - but that is for normal SnG's not Double Thrus.  Plus I know I am way behind my target and am eager to get back on track. 

 

Well now I have shown you a graph and you have seen exactly how much I suck, lets have a look where we are at in relation to the plan.

Total BR stands at about - $3300 but after a few more games I will have my $500 bonus released, so realistically more like $3800.

Firstly from a start of $500, it is certainly not to be sniffed at, BUT I  am missing my targets.  And my rectification plan?

I have signed up to another site which is offering a $1000 bonus, which I think I can execute within the 40 days given to release it.  So if I can break even as a minimum (not planning on that), I can still build the roll.  I will still be playing the DoN's and may dabble with the non-turbos, if the turbos suck for me too much.

 

On the upside, looking toward the WSOP, I have also qualified through this site for a couple of satellites.  On 7th April the top 75 will go through to the final on 10th April where 10 out of 200 will get a $12000 package.  I will also qualify for the May version so a couple of cheap tries for me to get Vegas bound.  WSOP sats are popping up all over the place and it's hard to pick the good quality ones that offer the best chance for the cheapest entry.  ANY GOOD ONES SEEN, PLEASE POST A COMMENT AND LET ME KNOW.

 

I still plan on hitting Vegas whether it is with a smaller BR or going for the Venetian Deepstack as opposed to the WSOP, I don't know, I am pretty fluid at the moment, especially as my hopes are still firmly fixed on qualifying for something with someone.  That sounds pretty desperate, BUT, I AM.

 

If this month goes alright, I will head back to Full Tilt and play SnG's again as I am only $78 off the leaderboard I was aiming for, even without playing there for a while.

 

Another fly in the ointment is the Mrs has decided that we should have a decent holiday this year and is looking at Florida in the 1st 2 weeks of June, just when the sats go into overdrive, BUT she does deserve it and who am I to deny the lady of my life a good time.  (Plus, I love that place, got family and a villa over there, and I cant get enough of Mickey, if i'm honest)  The Mouse cannot beat the lights, sound, smell and feel of Vegas but he does come a close second.  Even with the Hard Rock Casino in Tampa it just cant excite like Vegas can.

 

   OR    

 

 

When the wife, kids, brother, niece, nephew and parents are in Florida and are up against a lot of sweaty poker players in Vegas the only answer I can give you is ...........       ABSOLUTELY BOTH.

 

The staking of players is going a little better with a couple of small profits being floated my way, and I have some promising ones running as well.  I have not had too much time to search for other winning prospects but that has probably saved me money.

 

Well, if there is anything else you want to know about my journey which I have failed to include or you have any valuable advice to offer then please post, here, on the forum or tweet me.  Even if the message is "GIVE IT UP BRO, NO WAY, NO HOW".  I am a big boy, I can take negativity and every so often I may just believe it, and I would like to hear peoples opinions, whatever they are.

 

GL at the tables.